Dear Wisdom, my right, index finger got caught in my coconut oil making press.   When it happened it hurt incredibly and then i had a double panic thinking about you being inside me and the SOS response my body was having so i went and laid in the bed for an hour under the blankets because it's been chilly (in the low 20's and overcast).   After the finger-crushing everything else became hard if not impossible to do e.g. writing you letters, washing dishes, cutting tomatoes except for reading books to Niko : ) 
 In any case, you weren't born from the trauma and I still have a day to recover before my soap-making workshop on Saturday with SOIL.